Truly Relying?

I'm not very good at showing Love...Knowing a person's Love language is so hard for me. How do you Truly love someone. How can you possibly Love as Christ has Loved? You can't; but even comming close to that is so hard for me to see. Like I Love my dad more then any person that I know; and yet I don't show him that. I do see God's own Love in my life though. And my dad and Grandma have done a very good job in my life by showing me love that I have never experienced before when it comes to being loved by a human being. God has been teaching me more about Love everyday. And I'm striving to Love him like he's never been Loved before....By whatever that looks like. He will show me.
* I do Love myself. Have respect for myself. It doesn't matter to me what people think about me...I have potential- I have been that person> So I know that AJay exists somewhere inside of me....Whatever that looks like; I trust that God is showing me.*

-I am very aware of my Incompleteness. We all need to be aware of this. It's nice to have a person there to show you what you can be....Tell you what's up. As brother's and sister's in Christ we need that; At least I do. I know what is wrong with me....But feelings I cannot put a finger on. It was so easy when I was dating Mike; he helped me with that. I was blessed by our relationship. Now it's another time. Another page. Shoot another book. I know that I cannot stand up on my own....or rely on other people to help me stand up straight on my feet. Only God can help me get up. Leaning on him is what I need to focus on more and more Everyday.

--I Love you. And I want to show that to you. And I will.--