That's exactly what I need...

I do a really good job of taking advantage of things. I have this great thing, and I know I have it so I just let it sit....if it continues to sit...it's going to drift away. Mabes that is what happens with me and relationships. I feel like I'm pouring into them, but maybe I'm really not. I'm so blessed with this relationship though that I know God wouldn't just allow me to let it go. I won't either. Not this time. I don't think she would allow it either. She knows me too well... maybe even better than I know myself sometimes.
--Rained SOOOO hard tonight. SOOOO GOOD! I had to walk back from Helwig tonight when it was a downright POUR! Well I took my time...and just wandered around..allowing God to Reign down on me. Just talking to him and realizing things. Seeing how blessed I truly am. Getting a smack in the face about messing things up. I am a good friend. Things like this happen, and it's okay if it's only skin deep with her, maybe thats better. As far as living together goes, I have really thought about it HARD, especially since Meghan metioned it. But I think I'm going to follow through with it. It will be good. What she does is her business, and well what I do is my business...and thats fine we go out seperate ways...but in the end I know we will still be friends. Just b/c I'm really close with Tatum doesnt mean anything. God has his hand around this situation for me...and I know he will get me through it. And maybe at the same time I can help Tatum. Maybe she will learn what real Love is. I just hope I didn't mess that up last week, but I know you're in control.
-And well back to the other>she's great. Everytime we hang out it's meaningful. I just hope that I can continue to be confident in myself and remember the person that I am...Confidence. Hebrews 4:16-Go with Confidence... That's my weakness...In everything...well I've only seen it in soccer until tonight when I was standing in the rain. Someone told me the other day that I have a unique walk...They couldnt put their finger on it. Then they said that I walk in a very confident way. Not with arrogance just confident in who I am. I found that strange considering I'm always told to have confidence in myself.
--At the prayer night at College Life last semester, someone prayed for me and they said God kept on telling them to tell me to be confident>they had no idea that is what I was struggling with in soccer and for every game that was my goal.
**Journal Entry-9/28/08- *Be confident*- What does this mean Lord. What do you mean by this? Be confident in the person that I am? with my gifts? with my questions? with my answers? Be Confident! You Speak this to me at the most crucial time. My goal is always to be confident in the skills that I have, Lord help me to turn this more into action than just words. I say I'm going to be confident, but it's more than that. Lord help me to be Confident. I need you. I don't know how to be confident in myself Lord. Please teacher help me. Help me to build my confidence through you oh God. Help me allow the Love I have for you build confidence in me. Be Confident that means so much. Help me to live confidently like you want me to. Teach me how to gain confidence-Amen**