Rain...sometimes it's what we need

So I love rain! Like alot of people know that a rainy day for me is like one of the best things. When it's warm and it rains I love it. I love playing in it...I use to love running in it(as long as it doesnt hurt), I love to well. haha. yeah it's just great. So today I woke up and it was raining....but i didnt know that. I got ready for class and well saw the rain...Went right back to bed. Sleeping when it is raining with like 4 blankets that I can cuddle with and my body pillow is like the best sleep ever.
And today= best rainy day nap ever (meg-it's fine that you woke me up...I had been sleeping for 2 hours.) I could have used my dog or a friend to cuddle with haha. but it was great.
*I don't know why I love the rain so much. It's like a cleaner. Like I go outside and just open my arms and allow God's grace to flow onto me. To rain onto me. Rain is like Grace for me I guess. I can go out with this brokenness and God literally washes things away from me, and I can physically feel it. And I can cry, and thats all a part of the rain. Rainy day's are a must in my life. I could use more, but it's usually too cold; so it's snow. ew.
So boy. haha. This is like an okay thing for me. He's good. lol. like hes legitamately alright for me. And he really wanted to hang out and chill tonight...but I was having heart-heart time with Tatum for over 3 hours. haha. But it was so good. It's nice to be able to talk to a person about anything...and well we talked about it all. ha. But anyways...back to boy.... I just want to like hang out....and be friends. and like go out, and get to know eachother...and not have this label...or any pressure on either of us. Like I'm fine with people being like oh girl. lol. But I know like the guys on the team, they just want him to get some or whatever, but it's not like that at all. And I don't want him to let them get in the way. and whatev's. wow. ha.

I'm in a really weird mood now. I didn't do any Hw tonight. I'm probs like falling behind in my classes. no I'm not I just feel that way. But I'm not tired at all right now. I feel so refreshed right now...with this rain...and like just getting things off of my chest with T and having her like being super suportive in what I believe and what I do. It's just great. With Sarah there isn't any of that. We don't like talk about deep things at all. And I don't want to be deep like all of the time, but what is there when it's all said and done. What do we have? exactly.

Every now and then I get a little lost

My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed

Every now and then I'm right up on the edge

Dangling my toes out over the ledge

I just thank God you're here