What that looks like...

I am so Blessed for having you in my life. I think the thing that scares me is that this relationship is new... So there aren't really any roots...and what there is I feel like it can be pulled up and ruined very easily.
But I need to stop living in that fear. Take some risks. Thats what I thought about all day today. If this is going to be 'Real' between us...I can't just lie to you like I did...I have to just be able to tell you straight up how I feel about you...or about what is going on. And thats hard for me...I'm sorry for that. Sometimes I feel like....well all of the time I feel like thats not my place. But I need to get over myself....



Talking to you on the phone tonight was so great. I was surprised. LOVE. Thats what that is. You showed me love tonight. And today. Because you care. I'm glad that we are real friends as well. lol. That took me a while to believe. But I'm just going to let this go. I'm going to stop holding on, and being afraid. Okay so we are finished with school in a month. But tonight I just got this feeling of reassurance. This feeling of maybe not being in school together is what we need. But I dont know.

I Pray that God blesses this in ways that I can't even Imagine

I Love being home....Seeing the stars when I get out of the car. Talking to my Dad about the issues of this world. Talking to him gets me fired up about what I want to do with the rest of my life. He makes me feel inteligent...Cus I just talk and he listens...and then he talks...and we uhh.. LOVE HIM! anyways....I am really glad that I get to spend Easter...this holiday that is so important in my life....with my family. It really means alot. And being able to talk about what the cross actually means in my life with people that actually care....

I Love you