Really Trying...

There are so many things that I am trying to do...Some I am doing well; others not so much.I just needed to say that


I don't know why I write on here...It seems stupid when I think about it. I write in my actual journal. But those things are different. Some are the same thoughts though.



Andrew Marin spoke in chapel today... He talked about homosexuality...different aspects of it. He was really great. "Its the Holy Spirits job to convict, God's job to judge, and my job to simply love." Thats a phrase I need to reflect on every morning, every day, at every moment. I need to love people more than what I do. Or at least show them how much I love them.



"But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:13
While I am suffering I don't think of it as participating in the sufferings of Christ. I mean obviously he suffered so much greater than what I could ever suffer, but thinking to myself 'Ash- this is so great, suffering through this with you.' I know that one thing that I have really enjoyed about Pre-season is the fact that as a team we are suffering together. We are going through 'hell' to reach a goal together. Blood, tears, and pain; we get to share that together.
Why don't I think of that with Christ? How can you compare?
The Bible is like a gem-It has so many different sides. One verse can be interpreted in so many different ways. This one verse has been that to me just from reading it a few times today..Each time I got something else out of it. We will never be able to completely understand all of God...there will always be something more...there will always be another way to interpret something...there will always be a different instance to where that could be applied. God is so good. So amazing. Nothing else can do that. Nobody else can do that. But then I still go out and fulfill the needs that I have with other things, other feelings, other people, other satisfactions; when God is really the only thing that can fulfill what I need. He is the only thing that I can truly rely on. He will never leave me hanging or anything.
Why do we treat God like that? Why do I treat God like that?