Sleeping to help ease my pain

Change is Hard... I know that-If it were easy well changes would happen all of the time. Doing it alone is even harder. ha. And I know I'm not 'alone' in doing this...God is always there. But thats different. Especially when people don't think you can do it. But I'm used to that, and it makes it harder...but usually I don't care...but this time I do...And I will succeed. I know it will take time, and I'll need help--not sure what that looks like yet.
I know that I can do this.. And well I've been good with it so far. Eh oh well...

*This is like the latest that I have been up all week--Besides Tuesday night. This is so great. ha. And I don't even have classes Monday, Wednesday, Friday and I go to bed at like 10:30 or 11, then I wake up in the morning and shower and do HW....and by HW I mean think about all of the things that I have to do. haha. But I'm fine with going to be early. Last year at this time my sleeping habits were very unhealthy...Mike being 2 hours behind did not help at all. I would stay up all night talking to him...and then sleep all day and go to the 2 classes that I had during B quad that didn't start until 1pm anyways. So I slept all day... Thats why things were so much easier last year. Sleep--Everything is easier that way. But I can't allow myself to do what I did in HS...Getting to that point is a place I do not want to go back too. Even the way that I was last year... that wasn't healthy. I never left my room..and that was easy b/c I didn't have a roommate. All I needed was my relationship with God, and what I had with Mike. Going out into the real world was too hard for me. It's a good way to keep myself out of trouble. ha. But that's not the way to do it. And you're still Alone when you do that. When you sleep you don't think about it....but those times when you are awake....Time passes so slow-and yeah you do HW...but you can't always just do homework... eh. Anyways...
I'm going to bed--Helwig is calling my name in the morning...working out always gets me through