Finding yourself...

I found myself last night...God shows up when you ask him to.

What people think doesn't bother me....What people say doesn't bother me...But I'm not a push over. I am 19 years old. I can take care of myself. When I go home I get taken care of by my parents...But I didn't have that growing up. I talked to my Dad about that this weekend. I told him that he doesn't need to fill my car up with gas everytime I come home...or take care of me. But he said he wants to. He told me I will always be his dad...and he is making up for the first 11 years of my life. Which is fair enough. Him taking care of me is just out of Love. True Love. And I see that. I take him for granted so much.
I can't wait till he figures out I am taking him to a Cub's game in May... I'm not going to tell him until that Morning-he knows we are doing something...but he doesn't know what yet...It's my turn to give back to him.


I don't want to push you away. I know God's will is going to be done in this--But the time seems so short. We always have this conversation...but it's just too hard for me. I'm not like this with others. I'm so used to loosing people...I guess I'm just tired of being used to that.


It's time for new friends... Here we go again. But I'm okay with it. I have a lil' over a month of school left...then I start all over. I can be distant from people for that long no problem...and well over the summer I don't keep in contact with anyone anyways...I suck at long distance so it will be fine. Now I just need guidance on who to stay close to.


I saw some people that I loved tonight... It was great... all in one place. It brought so much Joy to my heart. Seeing people I never see, and also ones that I always see...But they still make me smile more then anything when I see them. LOVE YOU!



I need to work on this presentation... I worked so hard on the paper.. this needs to be good and show all of the hard work that I put into the paper...B/c I know that the other kids in my class didn't take as much time as I did... That Frusterates me...