Don't Even Know

Saturday, March 28, 2009

I have so many emotions going on inside of my right now. One is that I'm so sorry. But that is beside the point.


What's the point in asking that question. I'm so frusterated right now. I can't even control this. And I don't know why it makes me cry. Today was such a great day. I don't even know what to say about that. Why would you ask that question? If I would have said 'Yes I am'...would you have done anything. So then would you have called me to talk it through. Eh I'm done with this before I get myself into trouble...


I make mistakes...Things slip... I'm sorry that I offend you with words that I say. I'm trying really hard, and I had been doing so good. Help me to Glorify you with my mouth! I cannot do it on my own.


LOVE
I don't even know if you are even worth any of this...I need to drop it so I don't have to worry about what you think. That's not what it should be about anyways.

I get to go home tomorrow.... I get to see my parents.. SO HAPPY! I miss them SOOO much. LOVE....I need to be reminded of what that looks like.


The girls won tonight... SO GOOD! so happy about that. Those girls make me so happy. Right now I can't say that about a lot of things.

1 comments:

Unknown said...

I'm sorry.

Ash.... I do love you the way you are. yeah, i care about what you're doing, but don't take that to mean that I don't love you through any of that. TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. I knew you were mad when you left the car, and this is a conversation we should probs have in person.

But I'm sorry because if you don't know that I love you, then I'm showing you some convoluted, effed up, self-centered love, and that isn't love at all. I'm going to have to work on that.

I love you.

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