Identity

I'm pretty I don't even know how to describe it right now. I went out with the girls tonight because Caroline was going...and I don't want her to drink...she has so much potential. And I don't know if that is even it. I just see people doing things that I did and it frustrates me because I know what it is like to be lost in finding your identity...whether you want that Identity to be represented through Christ or in Christ....or whether you want to be someone else...and maybe you are that someone else...but I believe everyone has a way weller....Shalom.... way of representing themselves I guess. But I think a lot of things that don't make sense....or that others are completely confused about. But it's okay...I'm just trying to find my play in all of this I guess. It's so old though...like for them...doesn't it get that way...
I guess it takes a very long time for people to see that. I mean it took my father years....I'm just so blessed that God is providing me strength to do this now...and that he has made it old for me.

My parents came to my game today...and then I rode home with them...and well it was so fun. We drove down the Lake the whole way...and stopped at a park on the way. And it was so fun. And ah.. I Love them so much. And they care about me in a way that makes life with them...or the way that I Love them so different from everyone else. I just have to ask for Patience when I am with them...But well they are older and they don't really care what people think of them...and that's awesome. I respect them so much for everything that they do...and their Faith...it is so evident that they are growing together in Christ more everyday. I just want to represent them as well when I am forming my identity. They are definitely two people that I do not want to disappoint. I know that no matter what I do in life they will always be proud of me...but I want to respect them...and by being a person of Faith....an uncomfortable Faith is what I want to be for them. And well I make mistakes....EVERYDAY. but it happens. Uh I Love them.
They Bought a new car on Friday...and I'm excited for them. ha. It's great to see them experience things together.
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There are some people that are in my life right now that make me I don't even know. But they are so good for me to have in my life. BLESSED. and Why. Grace....It's crazy. I'll never fully understand it...and that's what makes it so AWEsome. And I'm okay with not understanding...but I don't really understand a lot of things. But lately I have been questioning things more....I think Meghan rubbed off on my there a lil' but....but being with Lori this summer rubbed off on my even more....and it's so GREAT! Well it's very late....No School tomorrow...NO Practice...I'm sleeping for a while...watching Grey's....and making myself Breakfast....