Somewhere else

People assume things....and that makes all of this hard.
If I just came in this year- then they would know.
It's a need.
I'm trusting that this is all in God's timing.
Talked to Kara on Sunday. We kind of touched the surface of what is going on.
It's hard to just say it.
I know I'm supposed to allow others to share in it...Well they do back home. But it's hard here.
Because the problem is here.
I'm thankful that I'm different. But it makes it harder.
The girls in the other apartment....uh. It's hard.
Maybe the group that transfers in at semester.
Maybe I'll fit in there.
But I can't look to the future.
I have to look to the now.
How do I make this great now!
I need this to be great now.
The inside.
It hurts.
It's like a cave inside...and I feel it.
Lay it down...
He fills that.
But there is a need....a need for that.