Faith

Last night I went to a worship service that I friend was doing for finals. I'm not stressed about finals so it was just a time for me to just be around people that I Love.
I went with Katie. And Katie fascinates me because she is so mysterious. and Cynical. haha. But learning about her beliefs and what she questions on that walk that we went on was so great. We both have doubts. and she makes me feel more normal about the doubts that I have. Not that I care if I'm normal or not. --
I believe in God, and I have Faith. I know that Faith is one thing that always remains constant in my life. But sometimes with God I feel empty. If that makes sense. Christ is supposed to fill us. But I don't think it's as simple as that. A lot of times I do feel great. And right now I do. But last night I would say that I guess I was like katie. I guess I was cynical. One of the girls leading it...She believes. And her faith is great. And she is joyful....but does she ever question.
I used to be a lot like her. And I'm glad that I'm not like that all of the time anymore.
I learn more about myself everyday. And what it means to be apart of this world. And I don't know what my role is. Or if what I am doing is doing anything. Or that I'm not even doing anything. But I have faith that God will fill me.
*When I got my tattoo I was just going to have the fish be outlined. And it looked really cool. But then I had the guy fill it in because my Faith is not empty. It is not just an outline. It is filled. And I trust that Christ fills that. And that it overflows. and that when I am with people that they can see Jesus. I don't know that. But I trust. and I have Faith.
Jamaica in 4 days.