Some Will Seek Forgiveness...Others will Escape

So tonight I didn't really get anything done...which is kind of a bummer cuz I wanted to get at least half of my paper done...But it's okay. It isn't due until Thursday...But I want to go to the guys game tomorrow--but we don't have practice...so again homework party. ha. Tonight was more about Community for me. I bake pumpkin bread...so I took it to Colleen and Aaron. Chatted with them...(I prolly should have went over there to write this paper with them...but Kara was coming over...so packing up is annoying.) Came back to the apartment...and my Itunes playing just calms me...and being aware of God's presence. Then Kara came over....--The best distraction that I had all night--
I enjoy her company a lot. But our schedules don't mesh at all. So that's a bummer. Maybe doing Homework together will be our way of seeing each other...besides actually trying to hang out and talk. I really enjoy listening to the things that she has to say. She chews on things a lot. and I Love that because that is something that I really like to do. So to hear someone talk about something she chews on while I'm here at North Park is well I Love it.
--I said something tonight about something being out of my comfort zone so I don't do that...And I wish I could remember what I said it about...because being comfortable and avoiding something because it's out of my comfort zone...well it isn't something that I want to do. So shoot. What was it! eh anyways.
--Conversation with Kara is real...genuine...Love...Important to have. It's like Lori...but here. But not the same obviously cuz if Lori was here....well that would be awesome. And we would hang out every single day! lol. But I don't have that conversation with others here....and it's because what I have around me...I can't hold a conversation that means something with Michelle....which sucks cuz we sleep in the same room...but it just turns into I'm better than that....or that's dumb I will always be comfortable in my life....or her just trying to outdo something that I'm talking about. But Patience is something that I will treasure in this.

---I know that this is an obvious thing but I thought about it tonight while talking to Kara...Reading the Bible shows me new ways of the one that I serve. Of the one that I Love. And I want to read His word because I want to learn more about Him daily so I can learn how to Love him more each day. And it all goes back to the way that I see my parents Love each other. They learn each day a better way to Love one another. And that is what the Word shows me daily. If I Love the One that I serve more than anything...learning how to show Him that Love comes from his Word daily. ---

Cindy came over for some Pumpkin bread after Kara left. Taking me away from my paper...But it was great to just talk to her about the Psalm that I'm writing about and to just talk about our bodies....and she wanted to know about my back...and how much pain I really am in. Which was good...cuz I don't ever talk about my pain that much. So her asking really made me think about it.

So now I'm gonna write again...Which is great because while the rest of the world is sleeping....or when the only company I have right now is Great company--it's the best time to write.
"I want to learn to Love you like you have never been Loved before."-MT

Going to Pastor Judy's house tomorrow for 6 degrees. I don't really know what to expect....This is definitely out of my comfort zone to meet with people that I really don't know...But that is what life is about. He's not going to give me change....but he gives me the opportunity to change....or to do anything.