Long Enough?

I'm really annoyed.....I don't think that is right the right word....but it can be one of many.

Today was good though when it comes to Young Life...I feel like that is the only thing I have here at North Park...but I guess that's why I'm here. I met some kids at Roosevelt High School today...so that was encouraging...And one girl was really interested in Young Life...so that was VERY encouraging.

My Dad is so comforting. He told me today that I am probably alone...but that it's okay to be like that. Once again he ended the convo with something great...and then prayed for me...It's always about Joy and Peace. He knows me oh so well. And I Love him for that. I think he realizes how hard this is for me. But he is coming up to visit me December 5. So I feel so grateful for that. I can't Imagine living any farther from my family than what I do now. Which is funny because I have grown into that. My relationship with my family has changed so much. I like Long for them right now. haha. But that is probs because of what is going on here.. But it's good.
Just trusting in God. Or learning what that truly is. Until then....well....I just need to be okay where I'm at.

A friend told me a few weeks ago that I have been sacrificing so much of myself for others or to be okay with things....and that it is okay to satisfy myself. But I truly cannot satisfy myself.--I have been thinking about that all day.